Why haven't I been writing as often? I am in a strange time warp in life right now. Things are happening so quickly they don't seem to be happening at all. I don't have time to really adjust to anything that is going on because so many things are coming and going in my life right now.

AJ moved out. My sister is moving away at the end of July. My younger brother and sister-in-law moved back last weekend. I started paying a ridiculous amount of money to help my business that I own. I am trying to get a credit line on my house so I can get some things around here remodeled. My husband quit his job. He starts a new one this week. He has started having more and more responsibility with the teens and will probably be taking over the whole youth program in a month or two. I am trying to help him out more with that as I am the super administrative sort with tons of ideas to implement. I am going to California (Palm Desert- wanna come visit, Greg?) and Minnesota so I won't be around at all the last two weeks of this month.

I have to do things everyday that I don't want to do. When I was a kid, there was always the threat of a spanking or some sort of punishment if I didn't do what I was supposed to. There were cookies and time with mom when I was a good kid. Life has it's innate rewards and punishments and I have my own intrinsic and external motivations in life.

If I stop and think about all the little things in life I have to handle (won't bore you with details) and all the things I am required to deal with, I get panicky and overwhelmed. But in a day to day existence, things march in, things march out and I continue to function at my best knowing something is required of me and some things make a difference in life in so many different lives other than mine. The thing is, I never know what makes a difference while I am doing it so I have to give my full energy and attention to whatever the task at hand might be.