The Test

Sometimes this is what it comes down to. It comes down to really, truly denying myself- not putting myself, my wants and desires, or my emotions before anything. I come last sometimes.

And yet when I come last somehow I always end up ahead of everyone else.

So now I am at a crossroads. My life has strangely been building up to a decision like this at some point. And it looks like that point has finally intersected with my life.

Do I truly believe what I say that I do? Am I willing to fall, to take the jump and really trust that something is at the bottom to catch me?

I guess I'll find out.